#reverb12 Day 2: Your most significant spend?
I looked and looked and looked at a lot of baby things
before I bought anything. I felt like if
I bought something, I might jinx myself.
I worried about the heartache I would have if something went wrong with
my pregnancy, and how I would have all of these things I could no longer use. The baby was someone that I wanted so badly
that it terrified me.
The first thing I bought for the baby was a little monkey
hat. I felt a little guilty, like maybe
I wasn’t supposed to be shopping for him already. But the hat was so cute, and I bought
it. I kept the hat hanging next to my bed;
it was the first thing I looked at in the morning, and the last thing I looked
at before turning out the light. I would
look at that hat, and stroke my pregnancy bump, and whisper quietly to the baby
about how much I loved him already. It
was the first thing I did for the baby, other than the things I was doing for
my own physical health, and it was the only thing I did for months.
It is so satisfying to see him wear that hat now, and think
about the days when it hung empty, waiting for him.
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