#reverb12 Day 1: How are you starting?
How do I feel? Exhausted. I am tired in body, mind and spirit.
2012 has been a year that has tested me in ways that I couldn’t
imagine. I lived through two major life
events this year: pregnancy and the birth of my first child, and the death of
my mother. It has been a year of extreme
joy and extreme sorrow, thoughts on life and death, and ruminations on the
meaning and experience of motherhood and childhood. I watched my body transform throughout
pregnancy, and I am in new awe of what it can do, even as I despair each
morning trying to find clothes that fit.
I don’t know who I am without my mother, and I don’t know who I am as a
mother. I am sleep deprived and can’t
even think about it clearly. I haven’t
read a book or worked out properly in months.
I am more of a mess than I have ever been.
Despite all of this, I have also learned how strong I
am. I am ok. I am even happy. I am moving forward in life, and dreaming
about things that I have been afraid to dream about for a long time. I feel free.
I feel empowered. I feel
transformed.
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